I went to my rheumatologist appointment today. I am never going to go see that man again!!! Here is what I wanted done:
Cymbalta: I am on 60mg daily. It doesn’t work. I don’t feel any less pain. None. I HURT. I want to stop taking it. He said No to keep taking it. He also told me that I am on the maximum dose I can take. I KNOW for a fact that is a LIE.
Lyrica: I was on 75mg twice daily. He wants me to take 75mg in the AM and 150mg in the PM. He INSISTS that the combination of Cymbalta AND Lyrica will work for me. It has to he says. Well, he’s full of shit. Oh, and now I am having issues with my insurance company covering the new amount of Lyrica. Greaaaaaaat.
Flexeril: He does not even want to consider giving me something besides the Flexeril for spasms. I am on 10mg I think. It does not work. He refuses to think of anything else to give me. I wanted to try Zanaflex or Soma or something. No – NOT an option.
Klonopin: I am on 1mg pill at bedtime. Well, actually, I take them when extremely stressed out. I don’t take them before bed. They are NOT covered by my insurance by the way. He wants to up me to 1 1/2 pill every night. Hmmm…. Not too happy about this at all.
Ambien CR: I told him this worked for about 3 weeks then nothing. Well, he insists that it should be working for me. Uh – Listen Buddy – IT”S NOT WORKING!!!
I want to see a pain specialist and he said I don’t need one. Uh~ HELLO????? Do you speak ENGLISH???
Ok, that was wrong, considering he’s of some obvious Middle-Eastern descent. But I also wonder if he’s not RESPECTING me because of his culture. I wonder if he has a diminished view of women and doesn’t care.
I went in today and wore the most comfortable clothing I have – besides my PJ’s. In fact, I seriously considered wearing my PJ’s today. Instead I wore yoga pants and a t-shirt and flip flops. I barely brushed my hair. I forgot to brush my teeth. I hurt. No makeup. No jewelery. Not even my wedding bands, which are at the jewelers getting fixed. My BP is high. My weight is down. I HURT!!! Do I need to wear a t-shirt that says “Look at me! I Hurt and You are an Idiot!” ?
I am making an appointment with this highly recommended Rheumy tomorrow. She’s in Springfield, MO. Only a 2 hour drive versus the 4 hour drive to Little Rock to the other highly recommended Rheumy. I also found out today that the Gyn I think I want to see is in the SAME building!! What Luck! Maybe I can finagle an appointment with both on the same day!
Ugh. Tired, Hurt, Frustrated. Pissed at Doc’s. Someone Shoot Me Now. I’ll be strong and act like I’m OK.
Tags: Ambien CR, BP, Chrinoc Pain, Cymbalta, Degenerative Disc Disease, doctor, Doctors, Fibromyalgia, Flexeril, Interstitial Cystitis, Klonopin, Lyrica, Pain, Rheumatologist, Stupid, Weight Loss
